Not sure when it started, not sure when it ended either. The rainbow - the symbol of hope and miracle had always been encouraging. But it just wasn't enough. Everytime when hope seems to be near, strangely enough mere disappointment always find its way lurking behind.

Today, I made a deal with Him. I prayed for guidance. I needed to make peace within. I made a deal to continue with hope, but should the outcome be otherwise then I shall not look back. Perhaps it was my imagination, perhaps I was in denial. But, there's this tiny voice whispering within me all day long - "you know it isn't true...".

But, I had lost the bet.